I can't control my feelings.
They have taken over and I don't know what to do.
I'm sick of thinking over and over about them, the
result of this is just sadness. It can't continue, I have
told you everything, I can't believe I did, but I have.
I'm still going to be your friend even if your choice is
the one that I am dreading, the one I can't handle, the one
that will turn my life upside down. I will get over it
someway or another.

I want to be happy, its just your decision whether you
want it or not. Its completely up to you now.