I was miserable,
then i was happy for a while.
Now I feel lower than I actually was before.

I don't know what to do, I don't want to think
like this anymore. Every time there is a highlight in
my day, there is a something that goes wrong every time to make me
feel bad again, I hate this, I just want it to end.
Its not fair. Why should I even bother trying anymore? I don't know.
I thank my friends for being there, but then I wonder why don't they
all just ignore me. I don't deserve your kindness, you are too nice.

Cait - I'm sorry

So now everything has been revealed,
I hope its not going to effect us much.

Just by telling you has made me feel happy
and it feels like a weight has been lifted from me.

I just want to scream out " I Love You"

Dreams

Toady I was thinking, what does life hold for me after i leave school. Every event in my life whether it was big or small, has meant something. Also what do i want in life. My head pounds with thoughts and my heart feels like it is going to burst with feelings. I have a picture in my head of life beyond school in a few years to come, of Me and You and our family all living together as one. I know im probably dreaming but who really cares at least it makes me smile. Im turning my life around instead of being sad and lonely im going to be happy and in love. :) Dreams are possible if you try.

XXX

Being true to myself

I want to express my feelings in some way. I have been saying that i am going to change for a while now, but today I realised with the help of an amazing friend that its not worth being someone im not and i should just be who i really am inside. I mean where am i heading being this person that im not. Im sick of following in others footsteps and doing/acting in a way that others want because its not really me. From now on i am going to start being my true self and who knows it might work out for the best. Im just sad that it has taken me this long to realise that i need to be myself.


The life of every man is a diary in which he means to write one story, and writes another. ~James Matthew Barrie

To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting. ~e.e. cummings, 1955


He who trims himself to suit everyone will soon whittle himself away. ~Raymond Hull

God has given you one face, and you make yourself another. ~William Shakespeare

If i want to do something, im going to do it, I don't care what others think, This is my life and im going to live it the way i want.

Im so over this, it can't go on.

What does this word mean.
This one word, makes everyone think and wonder.
Love, what does it really mean??? People use the word love too freely, they think oh its just a world, but its not just a word.
This one word is not just something to say whenever and whenever you want to. It should mean something.
The person you say it to really should be the one. You should say it when you actually really feel it.

Definition - a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person. I know its confusing. Don't be afraid to say it, but just ask yourself do you really mean it.