Never meant to be happy

I have realized and excepted that i am never meant to be happy.
Every time my life starts to look good, something horrible happens.
I thought we were going well and then this happened. Im hating myself for
getting so attached and feeling what i felt. Im sorry for being so unlovable. Im
Sorry for being me. I know am faced with having to get through everyday without you by
my side and being able to hug you when im feeling low.

I always knew and dreaded that
this was going to happen, I just wished your feelings were different. Im hoping It can get better
and we can return to what we had.